As deep as well.

Happy 2013 everyone!

I just finished my dissertation period. All done and dusted. Hopefully.... Allah will grant me a really good mark. Amin. So here i am, having free time, so typing my life away~

It's snowing again. Macbook weather forecast says it's going to snow everyday, from today (Thurs) till Tuesday next week. Apart from Sunday. I love it when snow falls. That moment.. serene moment when snow falls. And im looking from my window. Snowflakes falling makes me wish that all my problems can just fall away. The burden. The worries. Fall like the snowflakes.

I wish things can be calmer. Just like the snow that settled. When no one has stepped on it yet. I wish life wont go by this fast. It's so fast i feel like im driving a formula 1 car. It's already 2013. And so many things has happened. And yet there are so many other things that i have not done.

I dont wanna have regrets. I wanna do a lot of things, experience a lot of thing. YOLO moments they say, but plis ah, YOLO moments that are still within my moral conduct. I dont wanna be the one saying of the what ifs of life when im older. I know we have to work hard too, but i dont wnna be the one "ahh all i did in uni was work. i didnt taste the good of life" I dont wanna be old and only then do all the things that i shouldve done when i was young. Because then, i won't have the energy to do so. Might have the money and time, but energy.... no.

Thats what they say. When you are young, you have time and energy but no money. Adults you have energy and money but no time. And when youre old... all you have is time and money. but no energy.

I guess we can never be satisfied with everything. We will keep on wishing and wishing for the things that we don't have. Then again, if we do have all our wishes granted, doesn't that mean we wont have anymore purpose then?

And sometimes there are moments that we want to give up and don't want it anymore because it's just too difficult. But when i've come back to my senses... i'll say and console myself... These are the things i want. and the things i have now are the things that i used to wish for.

I know it's good to think thoroughly of the things happening in ur life. But... Sometimes... all these thoughts in my head are too toxic. So please... if you see me in my deep dark well, take my hand and pull me up. Save. Me.

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