You see the sun comes shining through.

You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not because it's right, but because it will mean such a thing is possible.

I want to believe that.

Yessss, you might have heard of the quote above. Don't you think that it's true? :) Well I personally think it is.

I've been wondering.. No one blogs anymore. Why? Is it because we are just a little bit too busy to spend time and life's been occupied with something else? Or just merely too lazy or having a bloggers' block? Everything lies in you. Im just saying this cause i miss reading things that used to make me laugh, cry and smile, all at the same time.

I know, talk about complexity ;)

Someone told me to smile, so you should too! You'll get by!

xxxx
'AO

A lil bit of my 19th

Hi! :D It's been a while.. and bekulat-kulat sudah blog ani, no one writes in it anymore.. I don't know why. Macam tempat curahan hatiku tah pulang HAHAHAHA. Neway here are some pictures on my 19th birthday..



BIG BIG thank you to Hajah Amalina Haji Yahya and Nuraimi Mahirah Ismail for organising a birthday suprise for me.. Inda disangka2.. I was in the room becerita2 with sadrina, and then hajah suruh turun ke bawah cos katanya sabri minta highlighters.. i was reluctant at first, but i did go in the end and i was bringing three different coloured higlighters for God's sake! HAHAH bimbo wah drg atu.. masa kana suprise, myhands (together with the three highlighters) were shaking! HAHA! but it was a fun day! :)

Durang inda tau what i want for my birthday, so they thought of something as my hadiah, that is put ribbons on all the guys' head! HAHA can you guys spot the ribbons? Manis ahhh. and i was holding the cawan yang berlabel "AMAH" given by Sabri and Farid.. and the hoodie and the seluar, given by both of them jua plus si Hajah. The seluar ha "DRAMA QUEEN" all over it. HAHAHHA! i wonder whyyyy :p

Just posting this up pasal kan menjeleskan si Pong.. Though now nada lagi. Toldja i'll let go. SAYU. HAHAHAHA. here you go. cheers naz! :p

One of the people i love. Cause i would be of less happy without all of you.

A THOUSAND HUGS. :D

'Afifah O <3

It’s been so long since the last time of our encounter.

That decision was made not so long ago. But it seems so long just like an abandoned room, covered with dusts –accumulating. Empty with no sound nor vibrations and the mounting dust became the barrier. The radiance disappearing, in the other hand darkness appears.

The wind has come together with a storm. Regularly that it weakens the pillars that were once so strong. One by one they collapse; the last one was the only hope. Weaker and weaker by the days, no longer there was hope.

Once meaningful has become memoirs. Cherish the past without regrets. Build a new one with greater hope. Use metal instead of sand. Make it stronger than the one before.

At the end, no longer can you obstruct; a barricade of courageous-pride.

Dedicated to my heart.

Graduasi

Assalamualaikum.

Selamat hari belated graduasi! :D the pictures I saw are heartbreaking pasal aku jeles liat kamu graduate and aku nada sama kamu but nevertheless, I feel happy for you all. How we were all small girls who now have matured and ready to embark on our next path. Remember those hardships in our life are those things that shape us as individuals and I am sure we all (hopefully) are able to decide what's best and what's not.

I don't like not doing anything, cause that will end up me thinking, a little bit TOO much. How everything is so related in this world, when you find yourself insignificant and then someone tells you that you play a major part in their life? And how in some other case, someone, you know for sure, will never, EVER, be, even a dot in you life.

You lot will always have my heart.

I need a vacation.

HAHAHAHHAA.

And i choose Brunei. CAN CAN? ;)

xxxxxxxxxxxx (infinity!)

'Afifah O

ps: Naj, it is of your own effort that you are able to think it through. (:

Love Letter

Dear FnV-ians.. Today will be our graduation day. Its weird now that im typing this post, my mind is just went blank. The stuffs that i want to talk about are all gone now. so forgive me for making this crappy post.

4 years (or more for some) spending with each and every one of you is such a fortunate thing that happened to me. I know that i might not be the right friend for you all. I have too many imperfections to be your friend but i thank you all for accepting (even if its a half-heartedly) me to your everyday school life. To be honest, there are times when i feel this insecurities where i just don't belong on the same level as you all. There are times when i feel left out. There are times when i feel that i'm invisible in the group. There are times that i actually want to get out from this group and back to my pathetic lonely life. But somehow, i just can't and i don't know why. Its like theres this magnet that keeps on attracting me to not do something that i'll regret in the future. But what i'm afraid right now is the future. and thus, i would like to take this opportunity to say a few things which might be the last.

To Afifah, there's nothing much that i can say right now. But you are the reason why im still here. Your words of advice have taught me alot. and i thank you for that.

To Qayah, you are a very good friend. A good listener especially. To not spend a lot of time with you in 2009 is a bummer. But i have to understand that you have other friends and that you want to spend with them.

To Fyqa, We encounter quite a lot these past two years. the ups and downs.. thank you for always being there for me whenever i need help.

To Ekin, I've shared some things with you especially with fifah around. But when she's not around, i just feel that you are too far to be reached. i don't know what you're thinking about. And i just want to know more about you but somehow its just a difficult path.

To Zaty, Rather than saying thank you, i would like to ask for forgiveness instead. I think i've done a lot that might hurt you or just simply make you dislike me. My harsh words, my harsh attitude.. I think i went too far without realising it. And so i apologise. But thank you for being a good friend.

To Pong, I'm sorry if my teasing/jokes were a bit harsh. In my mind you are someone who i can easily bully due to your bimboness. So who knows that it might be hurtful. But you are someone who i always expecting everyday in school last year. you and your bimboness always cheer me up esp in GP class and for that i thank you.

To Dal, I'm glad that we were closer last year. I get to know you much better and i thank you for the willingness to share your personal stories to me. It really means a lot to me. I'm sorry that i couldn't be there for you whenever or wherever although i wish i could do so.

To Amoy, I know too little about you.

To Zatul, I know for quite a while but its sad that i know too little about you. Your case is the same like Ekin. I don't know what you're thinking and you are just too far to be reached.

To Sam, I'm sorry for taking advantage of you last year. You and your videos. I just can't find a way to stop my temptation from asking the videos from you. Sorry sebab banyak menyusahkan. Ohh kau cute..!! haha. Although you are the quietest among us, but i'm glad that we could be closer last year. We might not be sharing our stories tgether, but knowing you the way you are right now is satisfying enough for me.

To Faj, You are a good friend. Knowing you and seeing you ever since primary school is quite an amazing journey for me. I'm sorry however that i dont know what to say here.

To Sad, I need to know more about you.


There you go.. This is only a summary though. it would be a super duper long post if i were to write a long message to all of you. I have a favour to ask.. Whatever happens in the future.., if i were to be gone, please remember me. just remember my name and it'll be good enough. With all the insecurities that i have, as much as i wanted to hate you guys, i refused to do so cause in 20 or 30 years time, i don't want to remember that i hate you people. Crappy much..? heehhh.

To the FnV brunei, Its our graduation today. Lets put all the negative things aside for now and simply enjoy the day. Although you people might read this after the graduation. For once, i want to spend the time with you guys like we are a family - not just as a group.

Last but not least.., CONGRATULATIONS..!! We have come this far and now its time to celebrate it. Hope you all have a blast later on.


With love,
Nudge :)

Let's play, Shall we..??

Hello FnVs and dearest readers.. Its been a while this FnV blog nda be-update.. and i wonder why..? hmm.. and so i've come up with this idea - TAG GAME.. I've come across this one tag game in one of the blogs and so i've decided to copypaste it here with the hope of other fnv to respond and play along. Not that i have my hopes high but what the heck..

Here's the game. Find 7 or more things that consist of ONE COLOUR only in your room or house. Take picture of them and post it here. And since today is Christmas Day, i've taken pictures of RED things. And so.., Below are my red stuff in my house.. Unfortunately there's not much red stuff. Most of it are my mom's decorated flowers.

That's it from me. Hope the other fnvs follow along.. As for the next FnV who is willing to do this..,. i tag you to find green things. Then after you've done it. Feel free to tag the next one with different colours or specific stuff (e.g Vase, flower, carpet etc) to the next person..

Hope you play along. But if you don't then its ok.. :)

Till we meet again,
Nudge.. :)

Berpikir panjang

Assalamualaikum :)

Firstly, HAPPPEHH BIRTHDAY to Dalilah Nabilah Haji Laidin. Lagu Isabella akan senantiasa berkumandang for us to sing along to HEHE. Semoga panjang umur murah rezeki and makin bootylicious! ;)

Was planning to put an ugly picture of you, but nahhh, let's have this one instead! ;)

And to the following October babies, HAPPY SUPER DUPER BELATED BIRTHDAYYY! :D

There's this double page spread in the newspaper about the pig of happiness. I know babi, and it's hagaragamshigits hahah, and they are the origin of swine flu, but then the message in the video is good. It's saying you should be happy, and by being too happy about being happy, you spread the happiness and love to other people. So... Video babi pun babi lah. At least it's pink. HAHAHA.

Been thinking a lot lately, about very random things. Like how something can change in a split second without you realising and suddenly, you are far behind the rest, not up to the pace. You didn't run to keep up, but then again, you're feeling lethargic. I guess this is where Red Bull comes in. But in my case, i'll just stick to Coca-Cola :) or perhaps Ibuprofen?

And I had facebook quote love generator to generate my love quote and guess what came out?

"What was everything is always nothing when it's gone"

Bitter i know, imagine my reaction when i received that! =_=''

And kamu tau, aku buat report on Diabetes Mellitus wah. Sekalinya, apparently mellitus atu is Greek and it means honey, cause the urine from people who are having diabetes smells and tastes sweet. Jadinya bepikir jua ku tu, urg greek atu rasa the urine kah? Hmmm... HAHA!

HAHAH suri very educational the post, i'm addicted to newspaper now. And radio Bruneiii! Saya cintaaaaa.

If only UK ani macam Limbang and Bandar, bekerita ku sudah ulang alik. HAHAHAA.

Bah bai. And happy birthday again Dal! =)
Eks oh eks ohhh with love and glitters all around,
'AO

ps: Si Farhan jumpa anak Mr Bean tadi! HAHAHAH!! CALIII! :D
pps: Since kamu abis sudah exam, post pleaseeeeeeeeeee..? HEHEH ani macam aku amoy and naj saja yang active. Thanks mwahs mwahsss <3

Its just me.. :)

Dear FnV-ians..,
Exams done..
School's done..
Are we done too..?? i wonder..
or maybe its just me.. :)

Do know, dear FnVs.. No matter what, i am glad to have known you all as my friends. knowing you all for 4years have sparkled my life - even though the effect is only temporary.. I might not be the perfect friend that deserve you all to be my friends but i thank those who have taken and treat me as their friend. Even if it is a ''forced'' situation that you people have to accept me in your life, i Thank you for being patient and still willingly take me. I am lucky to have been given this big opportunity to meet with such friends like you all - Each and everyone of you.. I apologise for all my wrong doings escpecially my harsh words and attitude that might have offended any one of you.


I know this is out of a sudden.. but somehow i feel the urge to express it tonight.. before its too late.. :)


Once again, thank you FnVs for being such good friends. I will remember you all.. the goods and bads.. something worth to be remember.
Love,
Najihah K. <3

Guess Who..?

Just a little thing for fun.. kepada mangsa2 nya jgn marah ehh.. =D

Lets play guess who shall we...? Cluenya they are all FnV.. duhhh.. hahaha








I think its easy, isnt it... hahaha.. bila ku ambil these pictures...?? adalah tuu.. hehe..
There's more to come - after i find them in my laptop.. :)

again, jgn marah.. hanya untuk bercanda yaa..

Our nerves after GP exam =) hahahah.. btw GP was not easy!!

This was during Ekin and Pong blanja mkn di Le Taj~~

Credits to Nudge and Afiq for the open house invitation=)

posing at the pool


Fudge trying to workout =)

This was during our friendly match with MD people... HAHAHAHA... i guess MS th paling beulah tu rah MD.. Buat2 cm skulah sendiri lah konon~...
btw thanks Tun for the match!!! <3<3

random post 1

Oh gawd, i feel like updating this blog coz i dont know.. i miss the existence... =D so i ended up posting some old pictures instead since this blog is nearly PICTURE LESS!!!! nda jaaaa? =D
sooo below are some pictures masa lawan Uni United d UBD... good games... =D i loved it!!

Inevitable.

''Everybody has got their own Everest. Each is of different height but it's yours and you have to reach it''

An inspiring quote from this guy who managed to run the whole of Great Wall of China (GWOC) in 98 days. And kamu tau, the bricks of wall of China were stuck together using glutinous rice. And that the greatest myth of the GWOC is that it consists of just the jalan with the bricks atu, tapinya banarnya inda. Ada trench lagi, ada like mud wall saja with no bricks, and these acts as protection against the enemies during war. Interested? google it up yourself. (:

I've been getting this high magnitude of headache (HAHA mcm earthquake saja ani wah) and it's bothering me quite a lot. I. NEED. TENNIS. Dagaym.

Someone said this, ''Eventually we just pack up our bags and leave, cause everybody's changing and I don't feel the same''

Goodnites.

Pi to the ping.

Another one to climb

Assalamualaikum everyone (:

Firstly, I would like to say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to FAJRINA, semoga selera mu semakin berkembang kerana kau adalah partner in crime ku makan banyak-banyak and mengaut balik-balik time buffet HEHEHE. Semoga panjang umur murah rezeki and diberkati Allah sentiasaaaa.

Aku suka gambar mu di sni pasal usulmu macam Grinch ah. HAHAHHAHA :p

Secondly, SELAMAT HARI RAYAAAAA!! =D

That's me and Kairi, di Brunei hall. He was all posh, aku pakai baju tidur saja xD My raya celebration lasted only for a day, but it was amazing and siuk bekaraoke di tempat embassay punya open house. Makanan superb and just siuk lah, unlike last year, raya pun inda tau bila.

Saw you guys punya raya pictures on facebook, seemed like kamu are really enjoying the celebration. GOOD (Y) :D

And FYI, tangan ku bebalut atu, well, it's not bebalut, it's wrist support pasal apparently i've got tendonitis, which basically means urat ku swollen, and ive stopped being on pills two days ago pasal the ubat can cause side effect and it's got no sign to go away, the pain i mean. And it's really annoying cause this is the time where stress is at the highest peak with all the UCAS and progress checks and i really really need to detox myself by doing tennis or netball. But oh noooo, poor wrist inda suruh.

And oh coach tennis ku cakap aku macam buku. Ia pandai baca aku. DANGGGIT. Not that i think it's ever hard, reading me. HMPH.

Aku rasa aku macam si Nobita tapinya lain jantina saja. SIGH. hahah inda, inda emo ni, just disappointed. Si yeefah suruh aku pakai black nail polish and be-emo sama ia, with blisters. I mean what's blisters got to do with being emo? HAHAH antah ask him. Lupa ku tanya.

They say, the older you get, the steeper the challenges you have to face.

I feel that now.

Goodnites <3

Piping.

Miss shorteyy ey?

Hey Miss Shortyyyyyy :D

Yes i am officially the shortest girl in my batch, thanks for the invention of heels yang membuatkan people yang suppose to be shorter than me to be taller than me. COOL. Anyway that doesnt make me incapable of doing things, so i am still as awesome as ever.

HAHAHA yeahh roite.

Neway my wrist hurts. Like 'ell. Nya someone i should amputate it. T_T not really helpful are you eh?

And i miss kamu semua. Like berabisssss. I think the reason i havent found the right guy is that i am actually in love with my friends. In a non-lessy way, im sure you guys understand. Macam aku rindu kamu. And it's really cold here, and we cud really have a massive group hug within the 13 of us. That would be awesome pawsomeeee and a very heat-emitting one! <3

And i miss this person. Ia cakap arah ku, ''You're like a breath of fresh air, in this sometimes stuffy world''

And aku rindu family ku. And siblings ku yang super weird tapi aku sayang durang jua HAHAHA.

To keep it in a simple term, basically, i am....

HOMESICK.

HAHAHA yes figures right. From a girl like me. Oh well, you know too wellll. Bah. Bye bye. I love you all.


ps: please UPDATE this near-to-grave blog. many many thanks :)

A futile CPR

Assalamualaikum, and selamat menyambut Ramadhan. :)

This blog has been dormant, macam volcano. Let's hope it will erupt, the lava, in this case should be posts dibuat oleh sekalian semuanya HEHE.

Lets make a toast to the August Babies, NAZIHAH, EKIN and JATUL, for their super super belated birthday. And to SADIN MIHAH, Happy belated birthday to you too!

I hope you lovlies had a lovely birthday.

Sorry this post sucks. HAHAHA.




ps: The way i see you is different now, and I am afraid. Very afraid. and why am i hearing all lies and no truths?

Happy Birthday Pong =D

She: I knew it..!!! hahaha

Us: Apakann~~~

And there it was a cake with lilin yg parai waiting for her, our one and only ''babi'' yg halal yg bernama Nur Nazihah Haji Nordin aka Pong Aka nuna - our mangga of FnV (i think). and here i am..., yg cantik menarik tertarik lagi ngetop najihah kamilah (remember the name) trying to save this blog from dying.. hohohohoho..

awuu bah aku banarnya jobless bah nie msane. it took forever to upload the pictures arh facebook so might as well just do something arh this blog.. It seems that the world of blogging has been neglected by us all..

Its the middle of August now (almost) and august is the best month but the kapeh month too.. why..? sebab banyak august babies.. its best cause they might treat you to dining out or even chocolate at the vey least but kapeh cos we have to buy presents or cakes for them.. hehehe.. :P
And today, 12 aug 09 marks the day where Nazihah aka pong is one year older and one year crazier.. bukannya kan wiser tpi mkin gila.. hahaha.. jgn marah naz ah.. hehe.. at least this post is dedicated to you. 0:)

and so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU NAZES..!! (banyak jua nickname mu ani eh)
may you happy always and hope you like and enjoyed your day. esp the surprise that we did. Big thanks to Sad and Fifah for making it a success and big thanks to Amoy for being the driver. and a big round of applause for all fnvs for uniting for this surprise. too bad zaty and fajin arnt there to with us.

ok im lost of words now.. here's some pictures from the day.. just to reactivekan this blog - for a moment plg sja tuu.. haha..





















for more pictures of the day, click here. esp for those yg nada FB..