Unwillingnesss...

As much as i dont wanna it to be true
it is still becoming a reality
As much as i dont want to believe it
it is still forcing me to do so...

As much as i dont want to lose them
yet i will
As much as i tried not to cry
yet my tears shed themselves out from my eyes
As much as i want to be happy for them
and smile for them
yet my heart rebels to do so..

How i wish i could rewind the time
and make sure that this day will not come
but time is irreversable
and i have to face it
with mixed feelings...




excuse the not so good "po-yim" i made.. it just come out n my fingers just start to type it..


call me selfish if you want
but still.., i am unwilling to let go.
in fact.., im so not ready.
Ani bru doa kesyukuran, blum lagi farewell dinner
and the worse, the real farewell at the airport
i could already imagine myself crying foolishly even though i tried to control my emotions..
ohh.. i really dont want this day to happen..
*sigh*

So many words and memories that we will be having in this coming time.. but those are the times where there will be no fifah.. No more lame jokes, no more kuntilanak laugh, no more ugly candid pictures, no more advice from her n etc

ive known this girl for almost 3 years. i would like to thank her for welcoming me as one of her friends and also to thank her for being the ears.. ive been letting go of everything to her since form 4. all the dramas, all the secrets and all the lame jokes.. (taie gigi pah.. ingat kau..?? hahaha)
you name it she knows it.. hahaha *exaggerating*

oohh fifah... kuntilanak ku yg tercinta.. how im gonna miss u very very much... you are one of the first friends among fnv yg kenal aku.. then the other fnvs welcomed me to this association n how i really appreciate it sooo munchini.. Fifahh....!!!!!!!! waaaaaaa....!!!!!! sedih ku eh....!!!! *sniff sniff*


enough about fifah...

Khairi...!!!! how we just get to know each other n then ur gonna leave me alone.. ur gonna ditch ur netball partner n i will be losing my gayboy friend.. AArrghh... Sedih eh.. Bru jua kn mingle2 around n get to know each other n laugh together n play netball n etc.., u will be gone in just a snap.. kamu...!! Manager tani nada lagi niee.... hahahaha... no more of his fats complains no more of his stress comlaints and no more about him bragging bout how a good shooter he is...


Sad.., Merah.., Santi.., The CCK couple.., Muizz n the rest yg dpt the scholarshipss.. (well yg aku kenal lah) even though were not really that close, but yeah... it is still a sad thing just thinking that tni bru kn be more closer n closer... tapi ada tia jua aral melintang.. hhmmphhh... how im gonna miss ur huge laugh, ur craziness n all that...





as much as i dont want to d this but i still will..
To all of the mentioned ones.., good luck yeah in persuing your studies in UK.. All the best to you guys.. Make us proud here.. yet dont forget us.. keep on tagging kmi dsini ani hehehh




With lots n muchini of love..,
NuDgeehah..